Knox Robert Rossberg

The pains started early morning wednesday, my lower back feeling pains that I thought were pretty horrible. Little did I know what I was feeling was nothing compared to what the next few days would bring...

By the time Zach was up and had headed into the office I was struggling to keep a steady breathe. I called my mother to ask her what to do and then called my doctor. His nurse informed me I wasn't ready yet and I needed to keep better track of my contractions and once they were closer to come in, but until then just stay calm. This is not easy to do when you are scared to death about giving birth. My mother continued to tell me 'well Kelly I'm pretty sure you are going to have a baby today' she then continued to say this for the next couple of days. I avoided going into the hospital knowing that I had a doctors appointment the next day. Sleep did not happen at all that night, nervous of what the doctor might have to say.

Thursday morning..... My appointment came and as I waited nervously in the office with the perfectly white paper blanket across my lap on the cold table it felt like an hour had passed before the doctor finally came in. He laid me back checked the happily beating heart of my baby and measured my very large belly, then checked my dilation and informed me I was at a 3! I was happy I was progressing and then Dr. Larson scraped my membrane, informed me that he might be seeing me in a few days if not sooner, and sent me on my way.

Friday night was even less sleep then I had gotten in months. My stomach started to twist and the pain in my back had gotten so intense. I ended up in the bath several times trying to ease the pain. After my last bath while getting dressed I felt water rush down my leg and continue to leak. Water broke? I wasn't sure so I put on a pad and monitored how much continued to come out. By the time 5:00am rolled around I called my mom for comfort and within the first few words my stomach has done, I started to puke up all the Chinese that I had the night before. This went on for hours..

I showered and got myself ready and waited patiently for Zach to wake up. Once he was up I informed him that I was pretty sure it was time and that my water had broken. He quickly got up, showered, and grabbed my bag. He gently helped me into the jeep and headed towards the hospital, he held my hand which helped me stay calm on the outside. On the inside I was even more freaked out then I had been all week. We parked and walked into the hospital, once they got me checked in they started running tests to see if I had actually broken my water. Sadly not yet, but I was dilated to a 4. I continued to vomit while I was there so they shot me full of something to make the nauseous feeling go away and then pumped me full of morphine. With the fact I was pretty dehydrated I started feeling it before we even made it to the parking lot. Zach got a kick out of that one. When we got back home I went to the office to make sure everything was caught up and then headed to my bed.

I laid in bed for only a moment before the phone calls started coming in, I vaguely remember the conversations with my family and friends. At this point the drugs had taken over so deeply that I was happy as a clam and not a care in the world. I started to come to after taking a nap and realized just how much pain I was actually in. My mother could hear it in my voice and instantly wanted to be by my side. By the time she arrived to comfort me I was curled up in a ball wincing in pain trying miserably to time my contractions. I was not ready to head to the hospital yet, I knew that the time wasn't here and I needed to wait till Zach was ready to go. My mom rubbed my back and assured me that everything was going to be ok and that she would take me to the hospital as soon as I said ok. And then Zach walked in... He knew right away it was time to go, him and my mother share a few laughs over how this morning he knew I wasn't ready but was positive the time had come.

I don't think I have ever gotten into the jeep as fast as I did when I finally made it outside. It was the longest drive to the hospital that I couldn't keep still and was just holding on to every bit of positivity I could muster. I was not waiting for anyone at that point. By the time we pulled into the parking lot it was already dark and I bolted to the door knowing that if I could move this fast than they should be able to keep up. When I got off the elevator and arrived at the front desk all I could do was point to my name on the list from earlier that day so show who I was. The nurses instantly understood and showed me to a room where it never felt so good to put on a hospital gown.

Once I was hooked up to the monitor I began to feel the contractions even sharper. Every noise hurt my ears and anything touching me felt almost as if it were going to cause a rash it burned so badly. I strongly informed people no talking during contractions but my mother was so excited that she couldn't stop talking. I sharply snapped at her to stop.. I'm pretty sure that I had never been so rude to my mom before then but at the time I didn't care I was in so much pain. She thankfully understood why my behavior was as such and went for a nurse to rush in my epidural to get the pain under control. I never felt the needle go in but the look that surfaced on Zach assumed me that it was something I didn't not want to be feeling or seeing.

Now that the meds had kicked in and I was finally comfortable things started to settle. By this point it had to have been close to 9 in the evening. my father had already arrived and I had spoken with my sister a few times as well as my girls, and Zach had updated his family so everyone knew the final count down had begun for little baby Knox to join us. Zach stayed by my side the entire time, he knew what I needed with out it even being said and made me feel so much love I was beyond grateful. My mom also stayed in the room the entire time, she was not willing to go home and risk missing the birth of my son. every time we had a new nurse in the room she would catch them up to speed on how she worked for the hospital and had lots of stories to share. (Pretty sure they all enjoyed her thankfully haha)

Shortly after being hooked up and having thing get settled I was under the impression that my water had broke because I felt a wet leaking. The nurses checked and I was bleeding. It started to scare me at first but they assured me it was nothing to be worried about, at least not right now. They hooked my up to an additional IV to pump me full of an antibiotic that would help with whatever sickness my body was trying to fight. The blood continued the entire time but was never a true issue. I didn't sleep much that night as I waited to dilate further. I played on facebook and made little comments here and there to give away the fact that this is it! We still had not posted much online about how I was having a baby so it was a shock to most as they figured it out. The Tv shows were not much better, I don't remember what it was but it wasn't good enough to keep me interested.

As morning came my sister arrived with food for Zach and mom. with her arrival I began to get excited and feel that the time was near. I was mentally preparing for what was about to happen. I was finally to a ten, it was still pretty dark in the room when my doctor showed up and said he was ready to get this show on the road. He quickly stuck a very long needle up and a gush of water filled the bed. Now I know what having your water break feels like, peeing your pants in a hurry after having a big gulp is how I would describe it. The nurse put my feet up and began telling me how I was going to need to be breathing and pushing. I could feel the sensation to push start and everyone started moving around so much faster. I had my sister, mother, and Zach right by my side at everything began. I know Zach was not planning on watching it happen but as he held my leg he couldn't help but watch.

It all happened so fast... It didn't hurt much either.. But suddenly there was this baby being laid on my chest and all I could do was cry. There were no words to describe how I felt at that moment. He was here, my little baby boy would had taken up residence inside me for the last nine months was finally here. He was so beautiful and wonderful, at this point the sun had come up and light was pouring into the room. This moment was blissful to me, I had a family, not just any family but my family. I was in love with Knox from the moment I first laid eyes on him. I had become a mother and I had never been happier.

What a year... Good bye 2012 and hello 2013

Welp the world didn't end this year like the Mayans said so I have to say that I'm pretty happy about that. Means I have lots more time in my plate to accomplish more wonderful goals!

So I am sitting here watching the Dick Clark New Year's Eve special with chesty waiting for Zach to come home. I thought I was going to be alone for New Years and he still may miss midnight but the fact that he left Glamis early to be with me makes me even happier than I can describe! He truly has become the most amazing man ever and I can already tell he will be a great father as well. I have realized just how lucky I am already in life and how many more blessings I have to come.

Now that the year has come to an end I figured tonight was perfect to take a look back and remember everything that has happened in my messy life and make a record of it. So here goes!

Last year I spent New Year's Eve in Glamis and I kissed the one and only Zach Rossberg! Together we started a year that would change our lives in a way that neither one of us would have ever expected.

(HAPPY NEW YEAR TIMES SQUARE!!! Sorry it just happened so I had to note it :)

We spent plenty of time camping and boating with a great boating trip to lake mead and lots of weekends in Montana. This was a first for me, I had never truly been in Montana for longer then a drive though but now it feels almost like a second home. I completely love being there, it's such a beautiful escape and Keith's rock castle on the sparkly blue lake takes the cherry on the cupcake. We spent the week of the 4th of July there with lots of wonderful friends and family, only a few exceptions to that. I am looking forward to this next July, this year we will be spending it with an even bigger family!

That was the best part of the year, even though that was also the scariest part of the year. Finding out that I am having a baby... What a crazy thought I never thought would happen let alone happen with Zach. Had someone told me years ago that I would end up with him I would have thought there is no way then just laughed it off. Now I can not imagine being with anyone else. He has made me so happy and taught me to be comfortable with myself. I am now closer to my family then I ever have been and they adore Zach, which is completely a first. That I would have to say is the highlight of my year, I talk to my parents at least every other day when before it was every other week if that. Zach has brought out a side of me I never thought existed. I could not be more grateful to him for that.

During the past year I have worked for Brody and Jerry Bohn in a wonderful environment that I will always miss. Then I went to work very briefly for another sales company I'm sandy that was different but I still enjoyed it and I am very grateful for the people I met there. And now I work for the one and only Keith. And in accounting none the less! Ha I never thought that would happen, I have always done some accounting but now I run the show.... Not sure how that happened but I have to say I do love my job. It's a blast and I am actually pretty good at it too, plus Zach and I work in the same building and see each other daily and it doesn't seem to effect us at all which is wonderful.

Another big change was moving in with Zach but it was a great choice. I never went to my place anymore so it was pointless to pay for it and well Zachs bed is where I landed. Now we are working on his house and its going to be beautiful! It's been a very long project but we are so close to finishing!! The house is beyond gorgeous too, so many details and has the best of everything in it. I feel like a princess in this home it's that wonderful!

There were two engagements this year, Bridger popped the question to Payton back in February for valentines and they tattooed on their rings. Then on Christmas Eve Dante got down on one knee to ask Miss Rylee! It was the cutest thing and I was so excited for them both. I am looking forward to the weddings during the upcoming year!

Well I think those are the highlights to the year.. I have a few goals that I hope to keep this next year and here they are.....

1- Make it though pregnancy
2- Be a good mother and give my son what he needs
3- Make sure Zach feels loved and I share my attention with him
4- Blog more even if its just pictures
5- Facebook less and avoid people who bring negativity into my life
6- Be in amazing shape by the week of the 4th of July
7- Take full advantage of the training sessions with Nate
8- Cook great healthy meals for Zach and I

I think those are all great goals and enough for this next year.

Well only an hour and 15 minutes till midnight. I hope he makes it.. Happy New Years!!

Puppies!

So my parents went out of town for a few days and Zach and I have been watching their two Min Pin's which just happens to be the same kind of dog Chesty is. We figured it was going to be interesting having 3 dogs in our small place and that they may not get along but they were great together. Chesty needs to start getting out more and having more play dates because he is starting to really become lazy and fat which is sad but I think he enjoys it, he is so spoiled and loves every bit of nonstop attention he gets. Well to help him start preparing for this baby to come we agreed to watch the other two dogs. Well he looked at the two of them like they were dogs and he was the master haha it was priceless! I just have to show pictures it makes me laugh but I loved having all three of them.

25 Weeks & Snow!

So I have have been growing and growing! I cant believe just how big I have gotten it makes me sad to say the least. But so long as this baby is healthy I know it will be worth it. (Well that is what I keep telling myself ha) but anyways yesterday was my 25 week point which makes me happy because it means I am 6 months down and three more to go!! Yay!! I cant wait for this little guy to get here it makes me so excited!!

My adorable belly button that I loved is no more... Its now poking out and feels so weird when it rubs against something, and looks very funny to say the least. But when I push it in I don't think that the baby like that very much because he squirms around when it happens ha. but he has gotten big enough that Zach can finally really feel the movement and I know he did because he put his hand on my belly last night and when he felt the movement the look a crossed his face was priceless. He couldn't believe he was actually feeling his baby move. It made me so happy that its finally strong enough that it is undeniable that the movement is our baby :)

The first snow fall of the year is what I woke up to this morning! I am very excited for winter but it makes me sad that it has come so early! I mean its still October. I wish it would wait just a bit longer before it snows because we don't get much fall which is my favorite season and it makes me sad. Halloween is almost here and I can not believe how fast the month went! Just flew by to say the least. But anyways back to the snow part, we are working on the house still and we get carpet installed today and its gonna happen in the snow which fully sucks! I am not excited about that part at all. I want the carpet in so that we are one step closer to being done but at the same time having it done in the snow means it could be wet and then that could cause problems later on and I don't like the thought of that since its going in my babies bedroom. But fingers crossed it all goes well! We also picked out the cabinets for the kitchen and have the full layout planned and last night we went and looked at appliances which is fun because I am excited for a cool fridge. That's the part I am looking forward to haha. We are getting closer and closer to getting the house finished!! YAY!!

 

How far along? 25 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 160 (30 Pounds UGH!)
Maternity clothes? Borrowed Payton's clothes ha
Stretch marks? My poor bum looks awful
Sleep: I was sleeping so well for a while but this past week its been terrible
Best moment this week: When Zach felt the baby jumping around
Have you told family and friends: All my family finally knows and more friends have been told
Miss Anything? Feeling attractive
Movement: He wont move while I am standing but if I am sitting at a laid back angle he moves lots!
Food cravings: It has been Mexican food and now I don't really want to eat. 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still no eating pizza or Italian food
Have you started to show yet: I look like I have a ball under my shirt, no more hiding it haha
Names: Zach loves Axel & I like Liam.. We both hate the names each other like
Labor Signs: I get braxton hicks and they suck
Happy or Moody most of the time: My mood at work has gotten better but I am pretty moody at home
Looking forward to: Having the house finished

Other News: Today is the first day of snow!

23 Years Later

I still cant not believe that I am actually 23 years old! This is the first birthday that I actually feel like I got older on. I am no longer just a kid I am an actual adult! I probably feel this way because I am prego and in a very steady relationship that has now been a year together! I can not believe how fast time has flown! This past year has been a blast but way to fast!

Last year I spend my birthday partying nonstop and going all out and way over the top! Completely worth it though because I got to spend it with the most amazing man who I then thought was the man of my dreams and this year I now know that he is. I feel so lucky to have him in my life! This year he took the time to make sure I felt special on my birthday and got our friends together and took me to dinner and a movie (Which we rarely do so it was a true special occasion!) He spoiled me with the most amazing bubble bath (I cant get enough of those lately) and candles of my favorite scents. (I always have a candle lit where I am at) He also gave me the money to buy prego clothes since he knows how badly I am struggling with it! ha. He is so adorable and sweet to me!

My mother surprised me with toys from when I was just a baby so that my son would be able to play with them! I found that very sweet and adorable! My sister gave me a cook book with the most amazing recipes in it that I am having a blast making! I already loved to cook and clean before but my nesting senses are starting to come in and this book is coming in very handy to say the least. Zach was thrilled for the book because it means I will spend more time in the kitchen :) My grandmother (Moms side) sent me samples of the blanket that she is making for my baby and it is so beautiful! Its in the browns blues and whites and I think its going to be adorable! I cant wait to see it! She also sent money which is being spent on more fun baby stuff as well! My dads mother gave me the most adorable baby outfits that say cute like dad on them! I love them so much but they are so tiny and I have a very strong feeling my baby is going to be huge! So I'm going to go exchange them for a bigger size so he will be able to wear them longer.

I also got to go to lunch with Miss Chis! She even let me pick La Luna, even though that's where I always make her go haha. It was so fun being with her talking about all the exciting things that are going on, she has become such a big part of my life again and it means the world to me because my friends list is getting much smaller now that I dont want to go out. So its wonderful to have her around. We even got to see Parker while we were at lunch which is always a nice surprise. Well that was my 23rd birthday, short and sweet exactly how I wanted it to be.

 

 20 Weeks 6 days!

Baby Crib Time!

So over the weekend I was spending some time with my sister and we started registering for things for the baby shower and were having quite a bit of fun together. I got to spend lots of time with my niece and nephew which rarely happens so I was pretty stoked on that one. We while we were out we decided to make our last stop be Babinski Baby up on Foothill and well it was the best choice we could have made!

They were in the process of selling off all of the current floor models to make room for this winters collection. Well I started to look around and fell in love with the most beautiful crib! And just to my surprise it was one of the ones on sale! Sadly it was still pretty pricey so I was shown one other that they figured I might like considering how much I like the first one. Well sure enough I found it just as beautiful! It was a sleight bed style that turned into a toddler bed and then to a twin bed after. So it came with all the perks! Then to add to my excitement the crib came with a matching dresser/changing station! I figured because of the addition it would cost even more than the first but oh how wrong was I, it was actually cheaper with both pieces than just the cost of the first crib alone! Filled with happiness I knew I could not pass the deal up!

But the trick would be to convince Zach that he needed to to drive so far to pick up the crib and pay for it which I knew getting both to happen was not going to be easy. Luckily I had my sister who offered her truck and her husband to do the heavy lifting, as soon as Zach heard that he gave me his card number instantly and was thrilled he didn't have to do a thing but show up at the house to help us unload it :)

So now I have the most beautiful $1200.00 crib set for only $600! I am still so happy over it and so is Zach! The closer we get to having the baby the more excited we are getting! Oh how I love him so much already!

Slacking

So I have been failing pretty badly at posting pictures of my growing belly but that's not the worst part.... I have been ever worse at taking them :/ fail!! So my new goal is to make this happen! I figure if I take the picture every Wednesday when I get home from work I can post it Thursday and will be able to stay caught up on where I am! Since I am only 22 weeks currently I still have a while to go and it shouldn't be that bad. I do wish that I would have bought a better chalk board and I think that would have helped. Making my own was a very bad idea haha. Oops!

Well to catch up on my progress I am no longer as sick as I was but pizza is still not a good choice sadly. On the other hand I am in love with Mexican food and hot and spicy things they make me very happy! I swear I have Mexican food every day! If I could I would have La Luna for lunch and dinner and breakfast burritos every morning. I also crave pumpkin flavors like none other! I found a pumpkin spice mix and I drink it everyday in replace of caffeine to help with my slow starts every morning. My last craving is steak, I keep trying to convince Zach to come out to the BBQ and make it with me but there is always a reason to get in the way which super bums me out but I have been surviving. I have to say I do enjoy the fact the my taste buds have been heightened because I am a salt addict and I have rarely used it lately which makes me happy! Less risk of swelling up and retaining to much water. (As if I haven't already gained a crap load of weight!)

My belly and bum and breast are HUGE! My waist is still decently small but trying to get anything over my ass is a fail! and shirts that I figured would still work because they are so lose in the belly wont fit over my boobs or makes them look like they are going to pop out! Haha now normally I wouldn't complain about that part but when it limits what you can wear I have to say it seriously sucks! I can not wait to get home everyday and just rip my pants off and be comfortable!