Tuesday, July 15, 2014
This past weekend we went to Yuba lake her in Utah and brought along a few friends. During this time I was able to get to know my new friend Chelsea a bit more on the personal friend side and Im really enjoying having her as a friend. She is a great person and is teaching me that I can still have so much fun and be free spirited with out being under the influence. She has had a really rough few months and she is not letting that bring her down in the least. She has such an adventurous and beautiful soul that is hard not to want to be around her. There is so much goodness about her that you know where ever she lands in life she is going to do amazing or in my own words amazeballs :) I also got the opportunity to repair my friendship with Vanessa. She is also a great person and I am sad that over this past year we missed out on so much together because of the judgement I held against her when I my reasoning in doing so was pointless and almost cruel. She is a very delightful person and spending time with her, Ruben, and their son is actually very nice. They have such high goals and the true drive to have things in life and not just piss away the chances they have to better their lives. This is rare to find in people these days and its nice to know that there is a couple out there that both Zach and I enjoy being around. I look forward to watching my friendships with both Chelsea and Vanessa grow as we spend more time together learning from each other and enjoying the great qualities we all share.
Lake side fun is always nice and relaxing but this trip was so different. It gave me the opportunity to see that you shouldn't have to force a friendship that it should come naturally and those who want to be in your life will be there and make great memories. Those who take you for granted will only be there when it benefits them and that's about it. Loyalty to me is one of the most important qualities a person can have, some times it can get lost along the road with out realizing it but there is always room for a second chance.
There were also some other personal high lights about being on the lake. My wake boarding skills are getting better but I swear I need to duct tape my hands to the rope because I freak out and let go. FAIL! ha. And for the first time I truly tried to wake surf and started from the water and got right up! My original reason why I was even out there on the surf board was to 'body surf' as a joke which was actually a lot of fun so I figured hell why not try the surf from the water. SO MUCH easier and was actually a lot of fun. Proud moment in life :) We also had some scary moments of the close encounters with the fishies! They were everywhere and jumping like crazy! Zach took myself, Chelsea, Vanessa, and the two babies over to a cove to just float and jump in the water which was wonderful until we started touching things in the water and that was no longer ok haha. We would float with our legs up and our feet as far out of the water as we could get, pretty sure we looked a bit like we were going into labor. But it was truly a fun time. We took some GoPro video that we are going to try and make into one quick film with all of our clips, I will post it as soon as I can but until then here are some photos that high light our trip.
I love my weekend life with Zach and our cute family!
Friday, July 11, 2014
Lately I have been evaluating my life and learning what needs to be important to me and what does not. It saddens me that as I come closer to my 25th year of life that I have spent so much of my life worried about others feeling and opinions that should have never mattered. I am a very loyal person and I will do everything I can for the people who I feel are like family to me, but as I look back I can see how little my feelings have meant to them. I have given so much out into this world wanting to impress all the wrong people. The only people I should ever feel that I need to give all this energy to is Zach, Knox, and my family. They are the only ones that have always been there for me and have loved me unconditionally.
The moments in life that these people have given to me have been wonderful. They have all taught me something and shown me the better side of life. Partying, drinking, and waking up the next day feeling regretful has wasted to much of my life already and I am proud to say that I no longer suffer from that disease (With maybe a rare incident but nothing bad to wake up to). My father taught me to love the outdoors and enjoy everything that nature has to offer and I am very blessed to have found Zach who is on the same page. He would rather take our family out in the desert or on the lake to appreciate natures beauty instead of stay home and get wasted. He believes in taking advantage of all the wonderful things he has been able to buy and actually use them instead of just having them sit in the garage collecting dust. Why not spend money on gas to have fun and remember instead of spending money on nasty alcohol and look trampy in photos? I will always go with the first.
Life is full of just a bunch of moments that are grouped together. I am proud to say that as I am getting older and my family is getting closer I am loving the life I lead. It is giving me memories that I can share with my best friend and enjoy for the rest of my life.
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
Everything in life leads to things we may never have planned to have happen. I have first hand knowledge of this because my life is full of those moments but they have all lead me to exactly where I want to be in life. I have a great man in my life that I never imagined I would fall in love with but I am so grateful that I have. Every day we grow stronger in love and understand what makes our relationship work. I have always found myself worrying that I am not good enough for him and that he is going to leave me because of all the voices I hear and the examples of others that have been shown. Thankfully I have come to realize just how wrong I am in feeling that way and every day he proves it to me. We still have our ups and our downs but the love that Zach gives to me is unconditional in every way, he is not afraid to tell me when I am in the wrong and how to fix it but he will still hold me close and wipe away my tears.
I can be such a fool about life and the choices that I make but Zach is always there at the end of the day. He makes me a better person.
I could go on for days but I will keep my little love burst short and sweet. I am so glad he chose me!