When The Bee Stings...

We had our fist encounter with Knox and Bees last Thursday evening. For new parents I am pretty sure that we handled it well, at least I think so.. (There was a bit of Googling involved ha). But thank fully he is not allergic. Phew!!!

Zach and his good friend Christian were on our back patio talking and playing with Fireworks while Knox was able to enjoy some guy time before it was bed time. He was running around laughing and enjoying himself when he wondered up to our patio furniture to smack his hands down on the the coffee table when suddenly several  hornets began to fly out from under it. Before Zach could do anything about it, Knox had one on his forehead where he instantly cupped it with both hands. The tears & screams in pain flowed out instantly! The poor little guy thankfully is not allergic and with the magical help of doTERRA I was able to get the swelling down very quickly. He is my tough little guy and I am so proud of him for surviving his first bee encounter so well. Love that little man.

Lake Side Lessons

As most everyone who knows me well knows that I am hardly is ever in town. Every chance Zach and I get we are either lake side, the cabin in Montana, or in the desert. I used to take that for granted how many fun oportunities that Zach is able to give me but the past couple of months I have really started to appreciate it. I love being able to get away and just enjoy true family time with him and play with my son in the great outdoors.

This past weekend we went to Yuba lake her in Utah and brought along a few friends. During this time I was able to get to know my new friend Chelsea a bit more on the personal friend side and Im really enjoying having her as a friend. She is a great person and is teaching me that I can still have so much fun and be free spirited with out being under the influence. She has had a really rough few months and she is not letting that bring her down in the least. She has such an adventurous and beautiful soul that is hard not to want to be around her. There is so much goodness about her that you know where ever she lands in life she is going to do amazing or in my own words amazeballs :)  I also got the opportunity to repair my friendship with Vanessa. She is also a great person and I am sad that over this past year we missed out on so much together because of the judgement I held against her when I my reasoning in doing so was pointless and almost cruel. She is a very delightful person and spending time with her, Ruben, and their son is actually very nice. They have such high goals and the true drive to have things in life and not just piss away the chances they have to better their lives. This is rare to find in people these days and its nice to know that there is a couple out there that both Zach and I enjoy being around. I look forward to watching my friendships with both Chelsea and Vanessa grow as we spend more time together learning from each other and enjoying the great qualities we all share.

Lake side fun is always nice and relaxing but this trip was so different. It gave me the opportunity to see that you shouldn't have to force a friendship that it should come naturally and those who want to be in your life will be there and make great memories. Those who take you for granted will only be there when it benefits them and that's about it. Loyalty to me is one of the most important qualities a person can have, some times it can get lost along the road with out realizing it but there is always room for a second chance.

There were also some other personal high lights about being on the lake. My wake boarding skills are getting better but I swear I need to duct tape my hands to the rope because I freak out and let go. FAIL! ha. And for the first time I truly tried to wake surf and started from the water and got right up! My original reason why I was even out there on the surf board was to 'body surf' as a joke which was actually a lot of fun so I figured hell why not try the surf from the water. SO MUCH easier and was actually a lot of fun. Proud moment in life :) We also had some scary moments of the close encounters with the fishies! They were everywhere and jumping like crazy! Zach took myself, Chelsea, Vanessa, and the two babies over to a cove to just float and jump in the water which was wonderful until we started touching things in the water and that was no longer ok haha. We would float with our legs up and our feet as far out of the water as we could get, pretty sure we looked a bit like we were going into labor. But it was truly a fun time. We took some GoPro video that we are going to try and make into one quick film with all of our clips, I will post it as soon as I can but until then here are some photos that high light our trip. 


I love my weekend life with Zach and our cute family!

Living For The Moments

Lately I have been evaluating my life and learning what needs to be important to me and what does not. It saddens me that as I come closer to my 25th year of life that I have spent so much of my life worried about others feeling and opinions that should have never mattered. I am a very loyal person and I will do everything I can for the people who I feel are like family to me, but as I look back I can see how little my feelings have meant to them. I have given so much out into this world wanting to impress all the wrong people. The only people I should ever feel that I need to give all this energy to is Zach, Knox, and my family. They are the only ones that have always been there for me and have loved me unconditionally.

The moments in life that these people have given to me have been wonderful. They have all taught me something and shown me the better side of life. Partying, drinking, and waking up the next day feeling regretful has wasted to much of my life already and I am proud to say that I no longer suffer from that disease (With maybe a rare incident but nothing bad to wake up to). My father taught me to love the outdoors and enjoy everything that nature has to offer and I am very blessed to have found Zach who is on the same page. He would rather take our family out in the desert or on the lake to appreciate natures beauty instead of stay home and get wasted. He believes in taking advantage of all the wonderful things he has been able to buy and actually use them instead of just having them sit in the garage collecting dust. Why not spend money on gas to have fun and remember instead of spending money on nasty alcohol and look trampy in photos? I will always go with the first.

Life is full of just a bunch of moments that are grouped together. I am proud to say that as I am getting older and my family is getting closer I am loving the life I lead. It is giving me memories that I can share with my best friend and enjoy for the rest of my life.

I Choose You..

Everything in life leads to things we may never have planned to have happen. I have first hand knowledge of this because my life is full of those moments but they have all lead me to exactly where I want to be in life. I have a great man in my life that I never imagined I would fall in love with but I am so grateful that I have. Every day we grow stronger in love and understand what makes our relationship work. I have always found myself worrying that I am not good enough for him and that he is going to leave me because of all the voices I hear and the examples of others that have been shown. Thankfully I have come to realize just how wrong I am in feeling that way and every day he proves it to me. We still have our ups and our downs but the love that Zach gives to me is unconditional in every way, he is not afraid to tell me when I am in the wrong and how to fix it but he will still hold me close and wipe away my tears.

I can be such a fool about life and the choices that I make but Zach is always there at the end of the day. He makes me a better person.


I could go on for days but I will keep my little love burst short and sweet. I am so glad he chose me!

Where Has April Gone!

I can not believe how fast the past month has just flown by! It was one of the craziest months Zach and I have ever had together. But we managed to stay strong together and fight through it and we are now starting off May on a good foot!

Just as a brief catch up on what has happened I will start back on April 1st. It was a pretty rough day and I was not in the best of moods, I stayed longer at work and didn't make it to the gym. I was just straight a grumpy person and wasn't being very nice to Zach which didn't make him very happy with me to say the least. Well we went to bed on a rough note and I woke up the next day thinking it was going to be a fresh start and we would move past yesterdays drama.. Well we did but not in a way I figured it would happen....

I will never forget the feeling I had when Zach came into the bedroom doe eyed and a bit frazzled to question me on where my F150 truck was. I was so confused at first as of to why he would be asking me this and I responded telling him it was in the garage, as if to say where the hell else would it be? His look on his face was suddenly even worse when he stated that it was not in there.... I remember rushing to the garage to find the door open and the truck gone..... My heart sunk instantly and I felt as if I could see the truck there but it just wasn't. Zach looked at me and questioned if the truck was stolen, I responded bluntly saying OBVIOUSLY! We instantly started coming up with explanations as of to where the truck might be and who could have taken it. Considering the day before was April fools we were hoping it was just a joke and the only person we could think of that would play such an elaborate prank would be Keith, Zach's dad. So while he called him I ran out the diesel truck in the drive way to see if the garage door opener was in there instead of the jeep which it usually was. As I came up to the truck I froze in instant fear.. the automatic step that comes out when the door is opened was still extended.. I knew right then at something was seriously wrong and that this was not a prank... As I opened the door it only got worse, the truck had been ransacked and every compartment was open and papers we scattered. This was not just a harmless prank, we had been robbed... Our home had been entered and our possessions were taken. When I came back into the house Zach was on the same page I was and was already calling the police. I then realized that my purse was in the truck and everything I had was taken with it... I started pulling up my transactions to find that my cards were being used at a gas station.. I was so angry that someone could do this to us, I was in shock and so angry that first day. Then as time has progressed I have become just upset, it really tests your relationship when something is awful happens. Zach and I knew our only option was to keep moving forward and do what we needed to get back on track. We stayed strong together and made our home as safe as we could. This test has brought us closer as a family and made me appreciate having him so much more.

My truck will have been gone a month tomorrow and we know that the likely hood of ever getting it or our belongings back are slim to none at this point. Its still sad but from this we are grateful that they did not enter into our home and harm us and its only money at this point that was taken. I just have to remember its the little things in life that matter and help us overcome our challenges.

So as we move into May I am happy to report that life is still a bit stressful but we are happier than ever. I love Zach with my whole heart and we have such an amazing relationship with each other. We understand and appreciate each other which makes everything so worth it. I may make him want to smother me with a pillow at times (Ha oops!) but I know he still cares so much about me. We have grown into a great couple and good parents together, we still have a long road ahead together, but judging by our past we are going to be ok. I am with him till the end no matter what. So this post has turned into a love rant about Zach instead of details about April, but I am pretty sure that my stolen truck story pretty much covers it all. With the exception of Easter which I will post later with great photos and how I made the cutest Easter baskets (Yay me!) 

Baby Teeth & Bro Hats

My little stinker has two more bottom teeth now! Thankfully he has not become a biter yet with those sharp things! I know I say it often but every day I am more amazed at just how smart Knox is and just how fast he is growing. He wants to be a part of everything we are doing and is behavior is wonderful. He is learning to count to three and plays paddy cakes with us. His kisses & waves goodbye are now followed with the word bye! (Very proud mommy moment) He is starting his running now and is doing such a great job, if he falls he picks himself right back up and dusts off his hands and keeps going like a champ. No tears for this little guy :)


We have been spending every weekend in the desert recently and its been a blast. Zach and I are enjoying taking Knox out on the RZR and he loves getting dirt bike rides on the 150. He makes a burrap noise when he wants to go faster and he also understands that you need to kick your leg in order to start the bike. It so adorable when he gets on his little fourwheeler and kickstarts it before he sits down to ride it. He wants to be just like his father in every way. He will get Zachs hats out of the closet and try them on and walk around in them. He loves his father and he is adorable looking in them.

Well that is just a brief catch up on whats new in our busy lives. I have more pictures to post and they will follow shortly! Loves <3 nbsp="" p="">

Grand Cayman Island

The smell of sea salt in the air has yet to escape my mind, I can still feel the blistering sun beating down on my back as the sweltering humidity surrounds me. It was a beautiful vacation! It was my first trip to the island and hopefully not my last. Our family vacation was to the tropical island of Grand Cayman, where there are roosters roaming the streets and the clearest ocean water I have ever seen.

Our trip started off with a months notice to get passport ready and looking our best because swimsuit season was coming early! Zach and I got in gear and hit the gym hard to be ready for this adventure! Those 30 days went by so quickly and suddenly it was late Friday evening and we were headed to the airport! I could barely contain how excited I was to be going! The amount of luggage at the airport was massive, you would think that we were staying for a month rather then just a week. Slowly but surely we all checked in and headed to the terminal. We were bound for 3 flights, and long layovers before we would arrive to the island awaiting us. We quickly learned that our two young boys were not fans of flying.... in the least! Ha. But sure enough we survived and made it with both boys still alive.

As we packed ourselves into the van like sardines in a can with no room to spare we took off for George Town. I have never driven on the wrong side of the road with a right hand drive car before and it was very unnerving to say the least. We were on a one way street and Keith jumped out to pick up a box of Cuban Cigars and informed Zach to just circle the block a few times he would be right back, followed by the caution that he did not get insurance so do not hit anything..... We turned the corner and instantly hit a sign with the mirror, thankfully only rubber but it proved that right hand drive was going to take some getting used to. After sweeping Keith back up we stopped for a few small groceries as well as beer. Then away to the house we went!

The house was splendid! We had our own access to the lagoon behind the house and across the street within a few steps was a white sand beach that had a view of the ocean! Our pool was very large with plenty of room to play as well as a swim up bar to sit and relax at. There were kayaks and a paddle board to play on and a dinning table to sit right on the water and enjoy the warm weather. Our room had access to the main house as well as a door to the screened patio and easy access to pool, it was purple and white with a wonderful girly yet tropical sense to it. I was in love! We managed to find the first full season of lost on DVD in the room so needless to say we were watching that every night, can you say hooked!

We spent out days in the pool, walking to rum point for drinks, and snorkeling in the ocean. It couldn't have been anymore peaceful if it tried. There was no urgency to do anything but just enjoy ourselves and get a nice tan, which we sure did! Knox fully loved swimming and would be so sad every time we took him out of the water. He caught on the the holding your breath concept very quickly and loved going underwater and being tossed around. He was a great child during the trip and would do anything we put him into including the kayaks.

George Town was not what I expected it to be but it was still very pretty, we went in for a quick trip to walk down the streets and grab a drink. There were 5 cruise shipped at bay and were all loading up to head out to see so everything was starting to close up for the day, so no real shopping was done. We still enjoyed our little day trip out there. We also made a pit stop in Hell.... A large pile of black sharp rocks with enormous iguanas living around it and a small gift shop with the creepiest little man who thinks he is the devil (Even dresses like him everyday). It was a short lived 10 minutes and now I can say I have been to hell and back, ha.

Yacht Life!Thursday was a very rainy day and we were all a bit worried that our boat trip out to Sting Ray city may be a bust but we kept our hopes high and headed to Cayman Kai to board our yacht and head out. It was still gray skies but by the time we made it to the reef the blue skies were visible and the sun was burning bright again. We put on our snorkel gear and hit the water! It was fantastic! We saw some beautiful fish while our tour guide hunted for a conch. There was plenty of YOLO's to go around as we jumped from the top of the boat into the sparkling blue water below! Once we had our fun in the water we loaded back up and headed for stingray city. This was by far the coolest thing I have ever done in my life. We were surrounded by the largest sting rays I have ever seen! They would come right up to you and suck on your limbs or back with no worries. I was able to pet them and hold one, we were told they were the puppies of the sea. They were so gentle and loving! They boys were a little unsure what was going on but they both warmed up enough to touch them and then head back to the boat. After having Zach put chum in my shorts so that the string rays would chase me down (so loving of him) we loaded back up and headed to see the 4.5 Foot Green Moray Eel! It was so creepy to see and Noah and Zach managed to be chase by it several times. But they both survived after letting out a few shrieks of fear. Ha.

Needless to say it was a very successful trip, we came home with Rum cake and sun kissed skin. I couldn't be more grateful to Keith for taking us on such a lavish vacation. Having my toes in the sand and a cold drink in my hand made it to be a wonderful time. I am happy to be home and back in my own bed but I cant wait to go back one day!