Cowboy Boots & Beer

Swirls of dust in the air just cant seem to settle as people tramble along the well worn paths of the fair park in the warm late summer breeze.. Smells of pigs & chickens fill your nose as you first approach the grounds to start your adventure to see just what came to town this year... Cows, Goats, & Geese are among the animals you get to not only see, but unpleasantly smell, and possibly even touch..

Morgan and I spent a wonderful evening getting our fix of some good ole state provided fun this past week.. We drank good beer, avoided the creepy carneys, ate delish food, and rode a few rides... This was a great time that I fully enjoyed.. I look forward to going to the Utah State County Fair every year and I was so hapy for the priledge to take Miss Morgan to her very first one!! What a day to remember :)

Some times it hurts instead.....

Busy Daze..

Time just keeps on ticking..... That's the sound I used to hear daily as I waited so impatiently for the day to end so I could escape the path of adulthood and leave to regain my childish play. Those days were dreadful as I made them seem at least, but in all reality they were nothing close to that, infect they were just the opposite..

I found myself on a path to a career I didn't actually believe was possible, I had only dreamed of such a life that I hadn't even realized I had begun.. I was learning and growing in ways I didn't even fathom possible.. I was being shown the ropes of the industry and paving a path to point me in the direction I had thought to be deceitful and shady like the phase "we hustle people for their hopes and dreams".. That was far from what I wanted, or at least I had though.. Life lead me in a direction that was scary and hard and many tears have been shed over it, but now I stand in an office I can call my own. A door with my name on it. A staff who looks to me for direction. I am the tie that holds every unit of the company together, and I built it on my own.. Granted I was given the tools and people to get the ball rolling.. But I did it, bit and piece at a time I did it.. I feel so accomplished and proud of myself because for the first time in my life I know that what I am doing is right and that I can be who I want to be and make everything work.. My life's journey has lead me here, as well as some amazing souls who despite flaws in ethics they gave me this knowledge to do this. There are two women in this industry that with out them and their resilience and effort I would not stand where I do today.. So thank you ladies I will never forget either of you..

My life is filled with joy and bliss of all that surrounds me, my only sadness is the lack of your presence to enjoy this with...

Fine wine

My Sunday evening has finally rolled in after a long few days of one big emotional roller coaster in my life.. I laughed, cried, learned, and followed.. I watched a lot of football as the season continues to bustle along. I spent time with my best friend and got to show her what my life was like not so long ago.. In fact it felt wonderful to be there again, to just enjoy my surroundings and not giving a care in the world because I was surrounded by the people who appeared to be loved ones.. It was fantastically exhausting and well worth it!

Till I came back into realization and knew just how cruel the world can be.. Heart break and tears haunt the lives of those you seek love in all the wrong ways..

Life should be summed up by how many times we laughed and learned and not by the trials we suffer, those should be learned from but let the pain go and enjoy the little things, such as a good glass of red wine and a good football game with the one who does care...

My life on a bumper sticker...

Kick Off..

The sound of the can cracking open and the fizz of the fresh beer bubbling inside, icey cold to the taste... The doorbell rings as the hot pizza arives ready to be devoured by the hungry fans waiting on the couch for the coin toss to begin....

Its the season opening day of NFL football... It has been long awaited for this day, considering the summer was spent in anticaption of wondering if this day would even happen with all of the hussle and bussle of contracts in the league.. But it came, opening day is here..

Packers vs Saints... Let the game begin!!

You are the company you keep.....

Faith is knowing that when you expect something to happen it will.. Having your faith crushed and being let down with the fact that it didnt happen is one of the worst feelings in the world. It brings you down and makes you wish that you had never had that expectations for it to begin with.

I know this feeling and I know it well.. Maybe its because of the choices I have made in my lifes path that has lead me to encounter this on a regular basis.. I believe in giving people the opportunity to prove their worth and value, but the bad part about that is once they break that I continue to give them more chances without them ever proving that they can be a better person and live up to what they said they were. It rips me down over and over again because I dont like to hurt people and I dont like to make them unhappy so I am the one who feels the punishment for it over and over again. People should treat all others with the respect they want to feel and no one wants the feeling of being made out to be worthless in anothers eyes....

Maybe the saying is right... And I just cant see who I am....