The Avenues..

I will forever and always hold a special place in my heart for the avenues of Salt Lake City.. I spent a year of my life living in among the tree huggers & the coffee enthusiast watching the city grow from a secluded distance but still within a hop, skip, and a jump from the center of the buzzing city life. 

I shared a beautiful 1920's home with several different girls, each from a very different path of life to say the least. The home had been converted into a tri-plex and we were the proud renters of the biggest part of the house. It was a three bed, two bath shelter that I called home. I was on the main level with my own bathroom (Very nice to say the least) while the other two rooms were in the basement. If the walls could talk in that home it would share stories like you would never believe......

I original started to live there with two medical studying girls from the UofU both named Jessica. I had previously know Jess Smith from Greek row, and she knew Jessica Forbes from previous parties. Our living situation only lasted a few weeks before all hell broke lose and Miss Forbes ended up vacating the premises and not on good terms by no means. But now those vendettas are settled thankfully!!

Then moved in the infamous Ryly Larrinaga, her and I had also began a friendship on Greek row that I would have assumed at the time to have lasted me a life time. But from what I have learned you should never live with a best friend because it is not going to end well to say the least. Ryly, Jess, and myself lived together in harmony (For the most part at least) for a good portion of the lease and then Jess slowly found herself no longer wanting to live there. But thankfully my best friend Morgan Kuhn needed a new start and some place to begin that so she became my fourth and final roommate.

As the seasons changed so did my friends and family as well as my life style. I partied hard with the frat guys, took to the nightly bar scene, was homely and never wanted to leave, adventured all over and attempted to be a walker (Ha that one was very short lived) dated many different men, mostly older ones that understood how to treat a woman, dated a bar tender for a brief moment who was covered in tats, (That was a life long goal I was able to check off) I owned a cat who's name was Gemma off of Sons of Anarchy and Morgan adopted a cat as well and named it Jax, (We were attempting to start our own show here) changed my look and attempted to become a preppy girly, changed it again to be more of a skater, and changed it yet again to be more earthy, I got BANGS for the first time in years and went back to being a red head, (My personal fave) got a new tattoo! sold my Lancer and purchased a shiny new caddy! and now here I am leaving it all behind and starting again with a whole new chapter of my life.

I will never forget what I have learned from living in that vintage home. It saw me cry, laugh, scream, and learn... I grew up in that place and now I am ready for a better part of my life to start. I have a new job with a better position, I have my family on my side closer then I have had them in years and I couldn't be happier with it! I still have my struggles and battles to fight but I am going willing to put my game face on, because I believe in myself and that I CAN be what I want. So here I am letting go and pushing forward onto a illuminated path I feel to be right.


Look out downtown cause here I come <3

The perfect first kiss.....

we were slowly getting closer to each other all night breaking the touch barrier... then after dinner we were hanging out and he figured out I was ticklish and so he kept slowly sneaking his hands to grab my knees and such..
 then we locked eyes and his hand slowly slid  up to my face and gently caressed my cheek.. then he pulled his face closer to mine, I was biting my bottom lip slightly as he got closer I was so nervous.. then he hovered his lips just inches away from mine and I could already taste his sweet cool breath.. then he pulled my face in and our lips locked, My whole body just went a bit limp while my
 heart started to race so quickly thumping in my chest! He pulled away after about 30 seconds and smiled the most adorable smile I have ever seen... Then he pulled me back in to continue kissing me..... I felt fireworks going on all around me! it was amazing!

The time I had to start over..

So its been an interesting few months to say the least and I am off to a whole new life as we speak! I have always had some crazy turns in my life that lead me to places i never anticipated I would go but now I couldn't imagine my life any other way then how it is...

I have had to learn the very hard way on who to trust and who to leave behind.. I have  lost my family and gained them back on a whole new level as well. Most people who know me only know a piece of me and never really take the time to get to know the real me. My family for the first time in 21 years has actually come to terms with who I am and what I want, they may not always agree with me of course ha. I am who I am and I am not afraid to shout it out loud anymore either, this is me take me or leave me but either way I am stronger then I have ever been before!

All My life I have been good to boys.... But now, this is how I feel

You say that I'm messing with your head (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All 'cause I was making out with your friends (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts whether it's right or wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can't stop 'cause I'm having too much fun (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, woah, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What... what... what... What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You're on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can't save me, baby, baby
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...
La la la la la la la la... Woah... Woah...

You say that I'm messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I'm messing with you in bed

All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about (I don't care about)
All my life I've been good but now, I'm thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don't really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can't save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I've been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la

Current Obsession

I have always had a thing for Michael Jackson but this song is beyond amazing to me and it hits home in a way that makes me love it even more........ Strong love!

This life don’t last forever (hold my hand)
So tell me what we’re waitin’ for (hold my hand)
Better off being together (hold my hand)
Than being miserable alone (hold my hand)

Cause I’ve been there before
And you’ve been there before
But together we can be alright
Cause when it gets dark and when it gets cold
We can just hold each other till we see the sunlight

So if you just hold my hand
Baby I promise that I’ll do all I can
Things will get better if you just hold my hand
Nothing can come in between us if you just hold, hold my, hold my, hold my hand

The nights are getting darker (hold my hand)
And there’s no peace inside (hold my hand)
So why make our lives harder (hold my hand)
By fighting love, tonight

Cause I’ve been there before
And you’ve been there before
But together we can be alright.
Cause when it gets dark and when it gets cold
We can just hold each other till we see the sunlight

So if you just hold my hand
Baby I promise that I’ll do all I can
Things will get better if you just hold my hand

Nothing can come in between us
If you just hold my hand

Wedding Bells & Studded Stilettos

 

I have always had a love for weddings, they are the days where people get together out of love and happiness for the lucky couple who have chosen to spend the rest of their lives with one another for better or worse, though the tears & giggles, and everything in between.

Over the beautiful summer of 2010, one of my closest of friends Morgan Lee Kuhn was married to Alex Greer in an alluring outdoor ceremony. Everything was so magical that day from the warming sunlight glistening on the gems of her gown, to the freshly cut flowers surrounding the happy couple. The aroma of daisy's, lilies, and babies breath fill the air as you walk onto the damp green grass still drying in the sunlight from the morning dew, making the ground like almost as if there are diamonds carefully placed amongst the neatly lined chairs. With all of the girls hair perfectly curled and boys ties flattened nicely on their lapels as the wedding begins. Smiles and light chatter can be heard as Alex and the Bishop wait at the enchanting waterfall for everyone to gather round. As the guest take their places the music begins to chime in and the bridesmaids and groomsmen step out the shelter of the cool house and into the illuminating sunshine. Right, left, right, left.... are the thoughts as we all walk simultaneously down the isle while the girls grip the arms of the gentle men in hopes that a slight misstep and tumbling to the ground will be their fate. We separate as we get to Alex who is just beaming with the sheer excitement of finally being able to see his exquisite bride. 

With everyone finally in place the wedding bells chime as Morgan and her father appear at the marvelous french doors that lead into the open gathering. At first glance the brilliant white glowing from her princess ball gown make you think that nothing could be more magnificent and then you take a closer look at the intricately placed beads along the gown & veil, and precise gatherings in the glossy fabric. Her skin is completely flawless and every stand of hair is curled to perfection. He father stands towering next to her in his sleek black tux and matching classic ten gallon cowboy hat, just like he always has on. The two almost seem to be a statue for just a moment while everyone stands in honor of her. The walk begins as she ever so gracefully walks the isle towards the man she loves most dearly, there is not even a pause in her step, even with her studded stilettos making the walk even more challenging. 

Finally Morgan and Alex are together holding each others hands staring deeply into each others eyes. This is it, this is the moment they have been waiting for their whole lives but never imagined it would be this wonderful.   

This is how just a moment of the most important day of their lives was spent. I felt beyond privildged to be allowed to spend this time with them. Morgan is a strong & divine woman who deserves a man who she will be able to trust for the rest of her life. 

Congratulations to you both <3

The Howl!!

Every year the air becomes crisp and the leaves start to change colors and the spook alleys open up while the ghosts  & goblins come out to play! This is the time of the year where you can become anything you want, from sexy bunnies to a pirate ready to plunder and skirmish all your delicious chocolate candy coins! Everything seems to be significantly scarier as you walk the streets a car in the distance skidding away seems to send chills down your spine and hasty step to your pace. The colors of Orange & Black just seem you make you feel festive and spiders are a decoration you are actually pleased with, and pumpkins are hollowed out and carved with evil faces and intricate designs possible. The tastes and smells are what I crave the most! Its this time of year  that the cinnamon & apple fragrances warm your heart with each simple sniff, and the pumpkin ice cream and hot cocoa that warms the senses and makes you want to wrap up tightly in a blanket to hide from all the haunting figures awaiting you just outside the door........

I plan out my costume for each Halloween all year long and but the time it comes around I am never anything that is seeming close to what I had been wanting to be but still just as equally exciting! Kayce & I dressed up to be Bella & Edward from Twilight! (And for those who have never read all the books and don't want to be spoiled I suggest to stop reading here!) I loved our costumes oh so very much! We had every detail perfect right down the the Cullen crest that Edward wears on his arm. But we were no regular Bella & Edward, we were the last book when Bella turns into a VAMPIRE!! We made our skin perfectly pale and covered in glitter. We turned Kayce's stunning blue eyes into warm hazel eyes and mine into a thirsty new born itching to suck the bloody life out of someone!! On Friday night we were the cleaned up version but by Saturday we were on the hunt in tattered clothes and preying on anything tasty that walked our direction! I carried around my own version of witches brew and labeled it blood and continued to drop small pieces of dry ice into it in order to up the creepy factor and keep the drink very chilly to the taste! Here are a few pictures from the nights events ")